I sit for a ridiculous amount of time. I work at the computer. I ride the train. I eat. I watch TV. I’m sitting all this time. And all this sitting has caused me to gain weight. I’ve never been huge into exercise except for when I was at home with my oldest daughter. She took two two-hour naps and during one of those naps I worked out, six days a week. I was in great shape. Now I have two kids and work full time. I try to get up at 5:15 to workout. It happens most days, but it really only includes a run, a ride on the bike or some lifting. Not enough to put a dent into my weight. I want to lose 15 pounds. 20, and I’d be really happy. I’m becoming more and more depressed about the way I look. I’m a size 8, which isn’t horrible. But my boobs are enormous and the cellulite has creeped to the front of my legs. Beautiful picture, isn’t it? My husband doesn’t like the way I look. I don’t like the way I look. I’ve got to be in a bathing suit in 3 weeks in front of my family. My family who’s all seen me look great. I don’t even recognize myself in the mirror. So, tomorrow, I’m going to get up and run two miles. Hopefully, I’ll have the energy to do an ab workout. Then, I’ll eat air for the rest of the day. I see a weight watchers meeting with my name on it.
June 29, 2009...5:19 pm
The cherub-look should be back in style.
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June 29, 2009 at 5:42 pm
I don’t know why this is, but the focus on our appearance, especially comparing ourselves to some previous time, seems to knock us right off the track where we could do something about it. In my own experience, the more I worried and judged myself, the bigger I became. Ask your husband to support you, to love you just the way you are, with his words and his gazes, to add positive–not negative–energy to the situation. And look in the mirror and think, say, “I am loved and loving. I am beautiful and healthy. I am strong.” Don’t exercise to try to be who you were–exercise and eat better to be who you are now. Best wishes to you and your family.
June 29, 2009 at 7:36 pm
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