I joined Facebook a long time ago, but didn’t do anything with it. I am one of those people who doesn’t feel the need to get back in touch with everyone I ever went to school with. I moved to PA from MD after my freshman year in high school, and after my parents divorced. It was ridiculously traumatic time for me. Fortunately, I made lifelong friends that freshman year. The new school? I made friends, but they weren’t “real” friends. I always felt like the outsider. Like I was inserting myself into their group, and if I disappeared in the middle of a conversation they wouldn’t have noticed. I lost touch with all of them when I left for college. No surprise, and no loss.
I’ve been active on FB for a while now and have reconnected with people I haven’t seen in over 20 years, and I love it. Old friends from the neighborhood I grew up in, from elementary school, college, freshman year. But only two people from that high school in PA. I’m curious how people look, if they have kids, but I don’t really want to “friend” them. As I’m scrolling through looking at all the people I knew and noticing how they’re all connected to each other, I couldn’t help but wonder why no one has friended me. I’m a loser for even typing that. Hello, insecurity. Of course, I did connect with two people that I ended up “de-friending” because I just didn’t want to be out there. And one person sent me a friend request, but I can’t figure out how I know her. But, still, after all these years why do I even care? Of course, the stubborn side of me refuses to “friend” them first. How high school of me!
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December 1, 2009 at 2:39 pm
I loved this post! It’s hilarious and so true.